Ok, do you ever get that feeling that time is passing you by so quickly and you haven't gotten half the amount of work done that you meant to by this point? I guess we all feel like that sometimes...it kinda drives me a little crazy though because we have so little time in school during the holiday season. I'm trying to juggle several assignments and projects and yearning to wrap them all up before Thanksgiving and it is really very difficult considering that Thanksgiving is a week from Thursday! Eeek! Top that off with getting Xmas ready early and not having done any investigation into taking college course for renewing my theater teaching license and you have one crazed individual blogging for you today. How did I let time slip away from me? Ok, I admit that I tend to get lazy in my off time and usually I'm fully within my rights to do that...but sometimes I'm lazy when I really should be putting more things together. I wish I knew what was the matter with me...I used to be more with it than this....didn't I? Or is that just an illusion of me that I've made up in my mind? Either way, I need to really buckle down and start getting things ready for later in the year....oh and I forgot...I have to figure out when I'm going to audition for the variety show and senior class play coming up in a few months....WAAAAA!
Its really rather sucky being a first year teacher. Work tends to pile up on you and preparation takes much more time than it will when you're more entrenched in your job. I know that next year will be easier than this one, and the year after that will be easier still...but that doesn't help me when I'm afraid of falling on my face by the end of this one. I bit off a lot to chew on my first year, agreeing to take on a great deal of responsibility outside of the classroom as well as inside...and its just now really hitting me how little I've actually prepared for what's coming before June finally liberates me for three months. I know in the back of my mind that I'll get through it and that I'll survive...but the waiting and fearing doesn't go away. I just hope time will be kind to me in the long run.